It’s not necessary to pretend to be flawless because
everyone surely does have flaws. The ability to admit that it’s one of those
things and try to work on it is what matters. The constant thing in life is
change, so tell you I’m ready to give it a shot. It started with the kind of
impression I had about myself, I believed I was not good looking (smiling…) you
know the skinny dark guy with big eye balls, big nose and of cause big head! So,
I told myself ladies have no choice than to love me. I was made to believe that
girls love guys who not only smoke and drink but also have this crazy attitude,
so I started smoking, drinking and yes
ooo pepped it up with this lovey sexy attitude and believe me it was like
magnet on ladies. I got them all- both single and married! I had fun as I
became the center of attraction but I noticed I couldn’t sleep with married
women because something deep down in my heart just didn’t deem it right to sleep
with them.
So for over ten years, I thought I was having fun but
the power of love is strong, I met my soulmate who knew me beyond the physical.
Zainab never condemned me like some ladies did, she made me feel like its
normal for me and that some of my flaws can be worked upon when I’m ready to.
I’ve known Zainab for over 10 years through the smoking, drinking and
womanizing years and she stood firm by my side. I can also say that peer groups
too played its role in the situation because as they say like attracts like. January
2nd of last year still remains memorable, I went to the beach with friends,
while we were all smoking tobacco, I felt disgusted by the whole thing and vowed
never to smoke again after that day. I could only hold out for just 100 days till
I faltered along the way doing it sometimes, yet I didn’t give up and its over
a year now since I last smoked and am presently working on quitting
drinking as I do more of fruits and
water now.
I decided to share this because of someone who is
either trying to quit smoking or failed while trying. Don’t quit trying its
normal for you to fail; the ability to get up is what matters most. And I want
to use this opportunity to say a big thank to my bone of bone, flesh of flesh,
soul mate, my wife the mother of my unborn kids for not condemning me for my
flaws I love you now and forever- Mrs Zainab.
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